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mortalcityOkay, actual update on my life. In bulletpoint form, because... I like bulletpoints?
- I am not dead. That part is important and my biggest accomplishment right now.
- We are either moving or going to be screwed very, very soon. Like, by the end of the month. By which I mean, the landlord is evicting us, mostly because he's a jerk. (To be fair, I knew that when we moved in, but uh... there weren't a lot of other options at the time. And still aren't.)
- Unrelated to but totally not helped by the housing situation, I am in the middle of a really awful depressive episode. I have actually been talked into seeing a doctor about this (which, if I were capable of emotions other than "everything sucks", would totally freak me out), but... not yet, for various reasons. And waiting while large chunks of my day are being spent crying over nothing, and I don't want to eat, and can't sleep, and can't focus on anything at all is just about the least fun thing I have ever done.
- Just before I got slammed with the overwhelming awfulness of my brain, I spent a weekend with Jae poking at On a Saturday. (Well, I poked at On a Saturday. She wrote letters in which Lord Wyldon was a dick.) And realized that I need to reoutline large chunks of it. And then rewrite the entire thing. But not until I... finish it from where I am? Because if I start over completely now, Jae will beat me with something. Or make Tammy do it, which is a lot scarier.
On one hand, I am pleased that I have figured out something to do, because it's better than being stuck on the same chapter for months in a row. The chapter that has been rewritten four times and is still unfinished because I realized that scene shouldn't even be happening, because it helps when people actually remember their jobs. So now I have somewhere to go.
On the other hand... OH GOD, THE WHOLE THING? REALLY? (...that is an exaggeration. There are probably large chunks that are salvageable. But there's a lot that needs to be knocked into a different shape.) - I got a haircut today! It is really short and I like it a lot. Mostly because I do not have to brush it or pull it back or anything. :D
- OhgodIamsotired why can't I sleeeep? :C